We certainly felt that way when Amanda was killed. I know I felt like I'd failed at the most important job ever assigned to me...to protect my child. I wasn't there to protect her when she needed protection the most. I'd done everything I knew how to do to protect her, and still she died. It felt like there was no point in trying any more.
Because I didn't know what else to do, I prayed. I prayed for guidance. I prayed for strength. I prayed for some sense of purpose that could overcome the extreme guilt and hopelessness I felt. And God answered.
"Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful." ~ Colossians 4:2
I've heard it said that we never realize God is all we need until we find ourselves where He is all we have. Well, it may not take that for everyone to realize it, but it did me.
It wasn't that I didn't have anyone else when Amanda died. I had friends and family who did all they could to make the unbearable something we could survive. But no matter what they did to help, the overwhelming sense of hopelessness remained. The wound was one that could not be healed, and only an omnipotent, omnipresent God could help me survive it.
My prayers were answered and Jesus Christ gave me the strength to survive, a mission that gave me reasons to keep going, and the guidance to accomplish that mission. At the same time, He showed me that much remained in my life to be thankful for. And I realized that Satan is always looking to use such crises to take me down, something to always be wary of.
So devote yourselves to prayer, in good times and bad. Know that the devil roams the earth looking for any opportunity to destroy us and turn us from God. And always, regardless of the circumstances, remember you have much to be thankful for. No matter what hardships fall upon your head, we always know that Jesus Christ died so that we might enjoy eternal life.
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