Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,--Hebrews 12:1

Thursday, December 29, 2011

If I had known...

Amanda wasn't killed on New Year's Eve, but she was murdered at a party, a party where teenagers were drinking and getting high. Sitting here on Christmas break, the circumstances surrounding Amanda's death weigh heavy on my mind.

I dread the thought that another young person anywhere will fall to the sword of underage substance abuse. That dread, those thoughts, the possibility, the likelihood that someone, somewhere will die because another teenager gets stoned or drunk is pushing me to try to inform everyone of the dangers.

The following poem came to me just now. Please share it with your teenagers before they go out again. Don't think teens partying, drinking, and using drugs are harmless. We know all too well just how harmful they really are.

There was a party that night
That sounded like fun.
Nothing better to do
So I said I'll come.

I know if I'd asked
My folks would say no.
So I didn't tell them
Where I would go.

They would say to be careful
And I thought that I was.
I didn't get trashed
Just wanted a little buzz.

There were people there
Who I didn't know.
It seemed harmless enough,
Some drink and some smoke.

I took the drink they offered,
Watched them act like fools.
Everybody was laughing.
Everything seemed cool.

But when I went to the bathroom,
One guy at me made a pass.
I thought he was disgusting.
I said no and I laughed.

That's when things started changing.
He said bad things that hurt.
I told the guy who brought me
He was mean and a jerk.

He went into his bedroom,
Came out with a gun.
All of a sudden
Things were no longer fun.

His wild eyes were glaring
As he drew down on me.
The fire from the barrel
Was the last thing I'd see.

I couldn't help but think,
As I fell to the floor,
I wish I hadn't come.
It wasn't fun anymore.

What had seemed so harmless
Killed me that night.
The drink and the drugs
Helped him take my life.

Please do whatever you can, do your part to stop teens from drinking and using drugs. It's not harmless, and it's not something they'll all have a chance to grow out of.

If you don't know Jesus as your personal savior, if you're missing the faith, hope, and love written about here, if you want the peace that we as Christians have in our lives, please visit our Got Jesus? page for step-by-step instructions on how to accept Jesus Christ as your personal Savior.


  1. Thank You for sharing, your poem and your story. Im sorry for the loss of your Amanda. I know it is the worst pain you can and ever will feel. I lost my son Barry ( Barrett K. Falzone 9/17/85-2/2/11) from a drug overdose...My heart is also broken and I know all too well how drugs destroy lives. I commend you for working towards trying to save other young peoples lives. I am also doing advocasy work for the Dual Diagnosis of this world...God Bless You

  2. I, too, am sorry you have to travel this path. Thank you also for working to make the world a better place and save others from our pain. God bless you also friend.

  3. I also lost my son to drugs. Perscription- some where legit and others came from "friends". Went to sleep one night in dorm and never woke up. This was March 2010. Since then divorce and my other son is now 17 and driving so in a sense it fells like I've lost him too. We live with my parents. I sit here in "my room" and wonder what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. The husabnd/family thing hasn't turned heart wants to quit my job, sell everything and go serve overseas in missions w/ orphans.

  4. I'm so sorry for your loss, of your son and the rest of your family. I can't tell you what's best for you, but I can tell you what has helped me keep going. (Nothing can make us get over the loss of a child.)

    2 Thessalonians 4:17 tells me I will one day join Amanda again, in Heaven. Faith in Jesus Christ makes that possible, makes it a fact. That's why part of what we do here is encourage others to come to Him. Cast your burdens on Him and know that you will spend eternity with those who've gone before.

    My work with this ministry, Running with Amanda, has also been a big part of the reason I can keep moving forward. It has given me something productive to channel my energy into, something I'm passionate about. If you can find something like this, it might be a big help. It could be overseas mission work, or it could be something similar right in your hometown.

    I'll be praying for you, that you find direction, peace, and strength. May God bless you as you move forward.


All comments are subject to moderation. Comments containing hateful speech, profanity, or other inflammatory remarks will be rejected.